Things are getting out of my hands. My problems seem so trivial, and yet impossible to solve.
I can see people changing their opinion of me. I don’t even know what I think of myself. I’m changing and I don’t know how to handle this. This person I’m becoming, I don’t know her and I don’t know how to deal with her. I had always wanted to become stronger and independent, but now I got it (or close to it) I’m starting to think maybe it was better before.
I would be fine with being broken, if that didn’t mean hurting and risking of losing somebody else. Maybe it was better when I was weak and people were hurting me. But I was never a victim, and even back then I made mistakes that I don’t know how to fix now.
Can I change into what I’m becoming and still fit in my life?
I’m afraid no friend or psychologist can help me with this one. I feel I’m on my own. Does it mean that this post can’t be a cry for help?